Young@Heart by Pam Young
All You Lack is Direction
I’ve HAD it! It’s OVER! I wash my hands of it! I give up! UNCLE!
That’s how I felt about my disorganized lifestyle. I was 34 years old when I hit bottom. Someone said, “The bottom is a great place to be because there’s nowhere to go but up.” Not until I hit bottom did I surrender to my situation and ask for the guidance that’s available 24/7. That’s when miracles happen. In that moment of surrender I was reminded that even though I was in a mess, I was in the right place with the right people, I was just fine and the only element I lacked was direction.
DIRECTION! I could deal with that! Direction involved choice! I just needed a map to follow and I’d be fine! For me it was the 3×5 cardfile system.
That’s the first time I’d considered the word “direction” in reference to my problem. I wasn’t lazy? Come to think of it, NO! I wasn’t lazy; I worked harder than those BOs who refuse to make work for themselves by being disorganized.
I wasn’t crazy? Come to think of it, NO! I had been able to maintain a high level of creativity within my messy lifestyle, have three happy children and adjust to the personality of a very unhappy mate and remain stable.
I wasn’t stupid? Come to think of it, NO! I was very smart though my disorganized habits sabotaged my schooling so my grades didn’t reflect my intellect.
So I wasn’t lazy, crazy or stupid even though my messy life could certainly have made it look that way. When I look back on the way I used to live, the only question I have today is, “What was I thinking?”
As Carolyn Myss would say, “if I can talk Angel 101 to you for a moment, consider this.” Let’s pretend I am one of your guardian angels and you have prayed to get organized. I have been assigned to work your case. I love the assignment because I’ve always loved you and to work with you personally is exciting to me!
I’m sitting on your chest when you wake up in the morning and I can’t wait to see you open your beautiful eyes so we can start our fabulous day together, but you’re so tired you miss the joy before you. I say, “I should have known you’d be groggy because you played on the computer until 2:00 am and every time I tried to get you to go to bed, you ignored me. When you finally went to bed, I wished you a wonderful night’s sleep, but you didn’t hear me because you conked out before I was finished talking to you. Anyway, now it’s morning and you stagger to the bathroom, tripping over shoes you left in the pathway to the toilet. (I was able to block your fall.) By the way, I love to hear you swear! We don’t do it here in heaven, so it’s fun to hear (sort of like when you first tried out a swear word when your mom wasn’t close enough to hear).
“As your days progress I keep trying to get a few words in edgewise. Little suggestions like, ‘Look at your calendar Love,’ ‘Get a drink of water Sweet One,’ ‘That job won’t be that bad, put your timer on for 15 minutes and start Darling,’ ‘Don’t take that comment personally, what he thinks of you is none of your business,’ oh and this one, ‘God loves you. I love you. Please be kind to yourself Blessed One.’
“Sometimes you listen and take our guidance, but most times you just don’t hear us or you say, ‘I’m too busy, too tired or I don’t have time.’ (I really get a kick out of that last one! I wish you knew how funny you are when you say, ‘I don’t have time.’ LOL My Adorable One, you have all the time in the world.)
“All day, every day I am there and I’ve watched you struggle with this lack of direction for years and years. Your team of angels has led you Make it Fun and Sidetracked Home Executives, but I can’t help you more until you let me help you. Until then I just have to wait, but remember I have all the time in the world too and there is no pressure.
“Mind you, while I wait, I keep myself busy. I am here to love you and surround you with light which is a fulltime job within itself. Oh, and I’m constantly on the lookout for things that will make you laugh, get you to dance, sing and play because when you are busy enjoying your life you are one with God and that joyful energy lights up the planet. By the way, you are here to enjoy the ride and I’m like your personal tour guide with wings.”
Be thankful for your guardian angels and know when you surrender to that higher energy you will get instant help. Where there was stress, there is peace and no urgency, where there was fear there is love, where there was sorrow there is joy and confusion and chaos turn to understanding and order. I received an email the other day from a woman who said, “Stress is a choice, I’ll chose prayer.” My best prayers are prayers of thanksgiving, for the instant I am grateful for my life and the blessings I’ve been given I am lifted up. It’s like I’ve joined my tour guides with wings.
Be thankful you are right where you are suppose to be and before you change one thing about your situation, know that you are just fine. We are here in your physical world to give you direction and you are surrounded by light and love. We are your tour guides with wings and we await your surrender to our guidance and that’s where the real direction begins.