Thank you so much for your angry words musing. I have had a terrible fight with my husband recently and I know it is so awful to take back words. I also have been reading your emails lately and I know I have to do something about my depression. I know being a fly baby will help me even with that. But I have had thoughts of suicide a lot lately and I know I have to get some kind of help. I suffer from chronic lymes so that in its self causes depression. I am very much a believer in Jesus so I pray a lot and so far it has saved my sanity. However I know for sure I will be seeking some kind of counseling tomorrow. I feel God has led me to read your emails lately as I had been a flybaby for a short while a few yrs. ago. I have still retained some of the habits you gave me but most have been left gathering dust. I thank you so much for writing about all of this and not sugar coating things. May God bless you greatly!